Life is a Rollercoaster…

I’m sitting here after a particularly stressful day.

I spoke to victim support today who have said that I really should think about making a formal statement to the police and they will act as my advocate if I need to. They also said they think that hubby really needs some help but that the MARAC meeting next week will kick things off. They have also said they will speak to the police and to the mental health team to try and let them know what is going on. I started to feel a little better about things

Then I get a call back from the office of our MP – unfortunately the thing I asked them about cant happen – too much to go into in one post so I will do another but I was hoping I could get hubby his council tenancy back if I agreed to give the house back to the council for the money we paid for it – but apparently that’s not possible. This left me feeling really low – as it was one thing I thought I could do to help.

Work has been manic – lots of interviews to conduct and as its a Friday I had to host the weekly huddle. Plastering on a smiley face and keeping things upbeat when I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out was challenging -but actually I felt good afterwards

That is until I got a call to let me know that hubby has said he has spoken to the police who have advised him to change the locks (they wouldn’t) and that he has told them all about the abuse he accuses me and my family of (I’m sure he hasn’t).

The person that told me was so stressed as hubby believes these things and so he sounds believable. I tried to explain that this was another of my hubby’s ways of checking up to see if we were in touch – and that the things he are saying the police wouldn’t have said. I also let her know that Victim Support have informed me that there is no active investigation into either Darren or I.

So yeah – life is a rollercoaster right now!!

(and I wanna get off!!)