Keep on Keeping on

Today has been interesting.

Its the first day that I haven’t wanted to just bury myself away and cry till it stops hurting. Its not been one thing – I certainly havent had a flash of light moment – but lots of little things that have made my mood lift a little.

Its been a positive day at work. I’ve managed to focus on getting lots done and got to chat with some amazing candidates. – and those conversations havent felt forced which was a relief.

I’ve also eaten properly and not reached for the crap – which is a sign I’m taking back control of my body – which is something I had NOT been doing for the last couple of months.

My gorgeous nephew was very chatty today – saying whole strings of words which was wonderful to hear. I’m so lucky that I now get to spend time with them – even if its on facetime – and I hadn’t realised how much I had missed over the years

I also had some good news on “whats next?”. My ex is being given a social worker – which will make handing over things so much easier – and Ive also been approved for another mortgage – which means Im not totally reliant on everyone else quite so much.

I wouldnt go as far as to say things are better, but I am starting to see glimmers of life after marriage and so that cant be a bad thing,

And until I feel better about everything Im just going to keep on keeping on.