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My sister in law asked me the other day if I had downloaded any apps yet? I didn’t actually know what she meant at first but then when she waggled her eyebrows it hit me, thats how people do things these days. Apps I started thinking about if that was the way I wanted toContinue reading “Getting back out there…”

It’s been over a month since I had to leave my home (and hubby) and until yesterday I still hadn’t been able to get any belongings from the house. The Police needed to come with me to the house and as I’m not staying in the area currently its been a logistical nightmare. On SundayContinue reading “Accepting I cant fix this”

Last night I met up with a mate who I haven’t really seen in many years. I’d been waiting for the police to get back to me to arrange for me to be escorted back to the house to get some essentials. Id spent most of the afternoon staring at the phone to ring andContinue reading “Going Out Out”

I realise that sounds about the most middleclass thing I’ve ever done but I assure you all is not as it seems. Yesterday I spent the day revisiting my 20s by taking a trip to Bournemouth. I walked around all day, seeing the club I used to work at, the places I used to live,Continue reading “Yesterday I had a breakdown on a golf course”

Hubby and I were together for over 16 years. He was my best friend, my happiness, the place I called home. Yesterday he sent a sweet message to my auntie and I dared to believe that maybe, just maybe, he was coming out of the other side of whatever has been eating away at him.Continue reading “Some days I feel like screaming”

Today has been interesting. Its the first day that I haven’t wanted to just bury myself away and cry till it stops hurting. Its not been one thing – I certainly havent had a flash of light moment – but lots of little things that have made my mood lift a little. Its been aContinue reading “Keep on Keeping on”

I woke up this morning and my mind was going round and round in circles. So much has happened in the last couple of weeks and I’ve never felt such a lack of control. After being the person responsible for everything – from the home, to bills, to cooking and cleaning – I’m suddenly livingContinue reading “I’m gonna walk that man right outta my hair”

It’s never easy to admit that you need help. I’m used to being the strong one – the person that can get things done and who doesn’t stress about the little things. But here I find myself, out of my depth, in completely foreign territory and trying to make sense of the nonsensical. One ofContinue reading “Asking for help”

I’m sitting here after a particularly stressful day. I spoke to victim support today who have said that I really should think about making a formal statement to the police and they will act as my advocate if I need to. They also said they think that hubby really needs some help but that theContinue reading “Life is a Rollercoaster…”